I’ve been using the Pray Now app in the mornings to get some daily Scripture in me. It’s been good, but this week I was feeling so worthless and I remembered that I need some confession and absolution time. I decided I needed to look back to my post 10 Steps When You Feel Like a Loser, rebrand the thing to When Feeling Unworthy and then follow the instructions.
A while back I had established a morning routine that I really loved, but it’s pretty time consuming.
Psalm 51:1-12 * Luther’s Morning Prayer * Scripture reading * journaling ACTS prayer time
Someday I can devote every morning to this, but right now it’s not happening. The journaling part takes the longest, so if I just liter my day with the prayer time that’s fine, but not as fun for a girl who likes to write things down. And definitely not as focused because I pretty easily get distracted when I’m praying + doing something else.
Anyway, this week I’ve been pretty blah and I’m getting tired of it. This morning I got up and showered – a key element to feeling better about one’s self – and went straight to Psalm 51. I even started singing “Create in Me” in my head while I was brushing my teeth since we sang it in church growing up and it was my favorite part of the liturgy back then. I was desperate to read the words of David, spoken as a promise for me that when I confess my sins, my God renews and cleanses me. And that He is sanctifying me through it all..
“Behold, you delight in truth in the inward being, and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart.”
I was desperate to beg God for the healing I so clearly need.
“..wash me and I shall be whiter than snow. Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones that you have broken rejoice.”
God don’t leave me despite all my faults. Don’t abandon me despite my shortsightedness and how I tend to wallow in my sin before I seek your face.
“Cast me not away from your presence, and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit.”
Here’s a PDF you can print out of ^ this.