Hem and Haw
I used to be really good at multi-tasking.
Or at least I thought I was.
Maybe life was simpler, or my brain was just younger. Maybe I didn’t over-analyze things so much.
Nah – I’m pretty sure I did. J
Either way, I feel like I’m becoming less capable the older I get. It has something to do with having 3 kids and wanting to put my marriage first. So then where does everything else go? And what about ‘work?’ I’m constantly trying to re-understand my priorities. The intangible and sacred are great. But then when push comes to shove, we still have friends who need us and bills to pay.
Over a year ago I started selling Pampered Chef and I loved it. (still do) I had a great first year and embraced it and I felt like I could really do something with it. And by “do something with it,” I mean like pay my car payment or take my family on vacation.
But I notice that when I’m throwing myself into that, my writing suffers. I don’t make time for both. And when I’m not writing, I tend to not be spending as much time in the Word. Also bad. These 2 things are what keep me sane. These 2 things are what make me tick.
I know that I can crack this code. I suspect it will be easier when I don’t have a 2 year old screaming my name (but I can’t be sure). Meanwhile, I’m going to try really hard. I’m don’t have much discipline and I’m not good at following thru. But my desire to stay-at-home at least until Eddie goes to school, is bigger than just about anything I’ve ever wanted. I’m determined to figure this out one way or another.
I read over my words. I roll my eyes. Once again, I’m missing a bigger picture here. I’m going to do this? Whose idea was this to begin with, anyway? It wasn’t mine. I never wanted to be a stay-at-home mom… until after I’d been staying home for a year at least! No, this was God’s idea. He has a plan for us, and once again I’m too wrapped up in my own abilities to lean on him the way He wants me to. The way I need to. He has given me plenty of knowledge, resources, encouragement, and support for all of this to work. If I can focus on Him, and keep my family in the picture too – not make it about me – we should be ok. We will be ok.
This is a picture of a binder I made for my customer care calls and my host leads. Following directions from a Nat’l Conf seminar, I’ve put together a binder for those 2 things. It’s labeled FUTURE. Catchy title, huh? One of my fabulous directors suggested we make a dream board. Mine is more of a ‘Get Your Butt in Gear,’ board and I’ve put it right on the front of my binder. So far it’s been effective.
Recognizing you have a problem is the first step, right? J So I recognize that when I make my business a priority, other things suffer. That does not mean that’s how it has to be. We don’t have to throw out the baby with the bath water. I can address this issue. I just need to get better at following a schedule. And for goodness sakes – as Tami said the other day – Nike has some good advice. Just do it. Quit hemming and hawing about it, and just do it.