A Creative Gives Herself Permission
[For all creatives who need to do the same]
It was the beginning of July when I started thinking it might be a good idea to just take the summer off from the podcast. I mentioned it to a few people and they agreed. A new job, all our summer events, the kids being home… it made sense to just step back for a few.
The idea grew on me and I said something on Twitter one day, but my intentions to post an announcement got left behind in all the activities and pretty soon it was our fair week. Fair week is its own kind of chaos, plus we have very little cell service out at the fairgrounds, so there was not going to be much posting in those 5 days.
July is almost over now and I’m officially convinced that giving myself permission to take time off in the summer is a good idea. A little late, I know. But I think this could be a really important realization, late or not.
So often I’m chasing after unrealistic goals in this heat and busy time, and it just doesn’t make sense. The more I think about it, the more I like the idea of setting a schedule that just doesn’t include new podcasts mid-June through mid-August. But this element of permission is key.
If I’m giving myself permission, then I’m being intentional. Intentionality is a powerful behavior that can have ripple effects into the rest of our lives.
Setting a time for me to step away will cause me to be intentional about returning. What will be the dates during which I’ll restart the show? What are my expectations between now and then? Will it be realistic?
Willy-nilly aiming for this goal or that goal isn’t so effective. Imagine shooting a target with a bow and arrow. Chances of success are much higher if we know how to set up and what moves to make when. The same applies to the goals we have in our lives.
“Goals” is even starting to sound generic. I have ideas that have morphed into projects. I have devotions that are ready to become books. I have recorded conversations that could be podcasts and I need to be direct about following-through. I love planning so much, but I’ve noticed if the wind isn’t from the right direction sometimes I don’t “feel” like working on that project. I don’t feel moved. Turns out that doesn’t lead to much productivity. Turns out sometimes I have to force myself to move forward on a project and then once I get going, I’ll start to feel it.
Those of us who are more creative than we are organized or methodical might need extra convincing when it comes to how to approach our dreams. The learning curve might be a bit longer for those of us who would rather fill up notebooks with ideas than dates, let alone doing the hard work necessary for those things to become reality.
Not only do I continue to learn this the hard way, I’m currently in the middle of acquiring a new schedule that comes with this new job. 25 hours a week working from home is really an ideal circumstance for me. But that doesn’t mean I can easily slide into wrapping that new schedule around the writing and ministry goals I have. I feel like the last several years I’ve been trying to get my footing. It’s been going on so long I’m not even sure how to behave now that I have it.
I have a job. We will pay the bills. And there will still be time left over to write.
WHAT DOES THAT LOOK LIKE?!
I’m about to find out.
This is somewhat of a rambling post, but my fellow writers and creatives might be able to recognize some of the sentiment. It’s a post that’s long overdue, but it carries with it some power for me to be able to say I will have reasonable expectations for myself between now and mid-August. And then schedules will shift and it will be much more realistic for me to start the new season of She Finds Truth. In the meantime, I’ll reflect further or what else I should be more intentional about and what that really looks like.
In the real world.
Stay tuned for an update coming soon about the next year of the She Finds Truth podcast!